Scattered Pearls – لُؤْلُؤًا مَّنْثُورًا


Life All Figured Out
April 19, 2009, 4:20 am
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I know a 16 year old who is: married, has a three month old baby, is drop dead BEAUTIFUL, has memorized the entire Quran, is extremely sweet… and well yeah, all at the mere age of sixteen-almost-seventeen.

The first time I met her, I didn’t want to really talk to her because, I don’t know, it just seemed so weird. I’m about the same age as her. I felt like a child compared to her. My first reaction after hearing about how she was already married (and pregnant at the time) was that of… perhaps pity or “Ew! What on earth!? How did she do it?” At the time, I had the typical American mentality. I took “education” and college and career to be more important and if marriage was ever mentions, my initial reaction was “no way, not until I’m twenty something”. I didn’t want to be “friends” because I felt like we didn’t connect. I am, well, American and she was from Bangladesh and barely spoke any English. She spoke just a bit of Urdu so we’d try to converse in extremely awful broken Urdu…

But time passed… And my thoughts changed. I go through drastic changes in opinions almost every month. I learn from every event that takes place in my life. So almost nine months later, I met her again. She had the baby with her who is obviously just as beautiful as her mama :) . But this time, I didn’t feel like it was so wrong that she was 17 and had a baby to take care of or that she had gotten married so early. I didn’t feel like she was missing out on life. I actually felt like she was LIVING life.

Who has their entire lives set out at that age? I mean, normal kids our age are too busy stressing about school and college and tests and by the time they’re finally done stressing out, they’re almost 25 years old.  Ah well, the whole system is just retarded. Most guys want to have a career so they can support their to be families, and you can’t have that set out until you’re into your twenties. They make it so hard for you… just because they’re okay with having relationships out of marriage and we’re not. I really wonder if there’s a solution…

Oh, that reminds me of something I watched: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fq_YMzx3M10&feature=related. A fifteen year old and an eighteen year old that want to get married because they think they’re “ready” and mature enough for it. Heck, the kid didn’t even know how much he earned in a year! I swear I’m a hell lot more mature! I know how to file tax returns and write checks and pay bills :) :) and cook and do the laundry and clean and blah blah. But alas, I’m still mama’s baby.



What Kind of Stereotypical Muslim Girl Are You?
April 17, 2009, 3:31 am
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This was so predictable, of course… *ahem* Saeeda =) There was no way I’d be ANY of these: Rockingly Awesome Rebel (sounds like my sister), Outgoing Activist (I don’t believe in a college *education* and hmm… I don’t think I’m outgoing, more like shy), Emo Muslim Ninja (Ew. Sad.) sooooo, the only one left was…

Perfect Sweet Girl

All the Masjid aunties want you to marry their sons (Fat lie). You are shy and demure, you say salaam to them all and kiss their cheeks and ask how they’re doing. You sit quietly with your hands folded and smile sweetly. When the aunties pinch your cheeks & ask if you want to get married soon, you blush adorably. (How embarrassing is that?)

Yeeeeeeeeahhh…



Al-Baqarah
April 10, 2009, 9:49 pm
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I was fairly disappointed that it had taken me five months to memorize Surah Baqarah when I had planned on doing it in at least two months… But nevertheless, I finished it.

Every time I’d hear of someone who memorized Baqarah or the entire Quran, I’d wonder what they felt like, you know, with the pages of the Quran engraved in their hearts and minds. Did it feel different? No doubt, the heart which contains the Quran is a lot more special than the one that doesn’t :) . I always wanted to feel what it would feel like… If you get what I’m saying.

Well, you don’t really feel as “special” as people treat you. People think you’re some kind of angel… Or something that dropped from Jannah and you’ve never sinned… haha. And that face they make… With 3 big O’s on their faces, “OMG? I COULD NEVER!” (I don’t tell ANYONE, my MOM and teacher do. I feel so embarrassed…)

I hate it when people say they could “never” do it. They just don’t have will to do it, I suppose. It’s not that… “I MUST do it, I have to do it, I WANT to do it…” I mean, who wouldn’t want Surah Baqarah and Ale-Imran shading them on the Day of Judgment? Wouldn’t it be worth the effort?

*pause* I just broke my friends camera :) .

The end.